“…in America everything comes together, tree and channel, root and rhizome. There is no universal capitalism, there is no capitalism in itself-, capitalism is at the crossroads of all kinds of formations, it is neocapitalism by nature.” Deleuze and Guattari, A Thousand Plateaus, 20

Maybe I’m putting too much thought into this or overcomplicating it, but lately I’ve been spending a lot of time obsessing over Obama’s presidency and his post-presidency public engagement. Between the release of his book, his campaigning for Biden, and his critiques of progressive movements, I spend more time than necessary getting upset over our First…

I could write here a reflection on my energetic connection to this land, about the comfort I feel being here; this is true. But what is louder in my head is this feeling of surrender to all that is bad. In the current backdrop of this country’s, this world’s, this planet’s, situation, I am struggling with finding the energy to keep my head above water. Their fetishization, libidinal coercion and fascism, clarifies itself every day. In reaction, I want to bury myself in friendship, in desire, in alcohol, in drugs. I’m looking to flee, both from This Place and from…

I’ve got a lot on my mind. I am currently confused about a lot of things and struggling to make sense of it all. I also know that attempting to make sense of it all might not be possible, and might not be worth my time. Surprisingly, the only thing that makes sense to me is my instinct. I feel like I might be consuming too much, but of the things I do consume, I’m feeling much more comfortable about my instinctual responses. I think I’m starting to trust myself.

I’m angry about a lot of things right now:

-people…

Sunday, May 24

Is this empathy? Is reading the NYTimes’ 100,000 names in my bed, drinking coffee, empathy? Is my self-isolation empathetic praxis? Is wearing a mask empathy? Is – redacted – who is returning to their life normally, not empathetic? Is – redacted – selfish for “practicing social distancing” while simultaneously desiring and planning solo-travel in the near future?

We have made the deaths of 100,000 a matter of ideology. It is the most prescient example of the way that hateful systems and hate has destroyed this country. When 45 was elected, I remember – redacted – saying, “well…

I played myself. At the beginning of quarantine, I was trapped in the middle of my first (and probably last) read of Beloved. I couldn’t get past page 131. I would get to that page, realize that the story was too heartbreaking, have a nightmare in which I would see my ancestors take the place of the characters, and then return to page one. This started in January when I was in the midst of my research about my family in ancestral territory. The nightmares were vivid, as it felt like I walked the scenery of my family’s land in…

On Wednesday, Anthony Ferrill, an electrician at Molson Coors, killed six people and himself in a gun-shooting spree at the Molson Coors campus. I’m from Milwaukee, and this story hits close to home. My uncle works at Molson-Coors and my mom and aunts were tour guides at Miller brewery. I am also sparsely connected to some of the victims, and connected to Ferrill himself in multiple ways. I am left confused about what happened, what we need to do to heal, and how we can move forward.

I was talking to my cousin Dwayne about Anthony Ferrill. Dwayne lives on…

With Black History Month approaching, we are reminded through cultural signifiers and celebrations to remember the complicated History of Black Americans in the U.S. With my recent travels to the South to learn more about my family, this association with History takes on a profound meaning. In a failed attempt to discover what paperwork exists documenting a story past beyond my great-great grandfather’s, I am realizing that for Black people, paperwork and legal documentation is not what embodies our experiences or keeps our family’s stories alive. …

“Trump really isn’t effecting me, so I don’t really care about 2020”

This is something I heard from multiple people last week whilst out at bars in Milwaukee. Many folks, without provocation, shared the sentiment that because Trump is not personally infringing on their rights, they are not passionate about our intellectual inquisition into our political climate. This apathetic opinion solely came from white folks, regardless of gender. I wonder about the geographic bounds of this apathy, about how far it stretches or its containment to white communities in the Midwest. It is interesting to think that Midwesterners would do…

For the next two months, I am taking time away from New York and spending time in Milwaukee, Wisconsin to focus on prep for grad school applications and tests. This is the first time I have spent a considerable amount of time in the Midwest in the past two years. I have thoroughly enjoyed myself on the East coast, living mostly in Brooklyn and some time in Washington, DC. Oddly enough, I realized that my regional proximity has kept me ignorantly, and possibly naively, happy. Basically, I feel as if I am in my own perfect bubble of intellectual and…

Sabrina Treacy

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